Marking Milestones

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I am the most indecisive person I know. OK, let me rephrase that, I was the most indecisive person I know. I was so bad that I could never decide on even what I wanted to eat. I must say that I have thankfully become better. However, this was the very reason I always wanted a tattoo. It would be something I could not undo (easily at least). I also hated change and the tattoo would be a decision I would have to live with. For these reasons I wanted a tattoo, a marker of growth. Needless to say, I never got the tattoo.

Two days ago I turned 35. I have always had a need to celebrate birthdays, especially milestone ones (I’ve been trying to trace the roots of this need but I actually think I was born this way), and to do something memorable for the occasion. 35 for me was an important one. Because of this, one thing I wanted to do, apart from celebrate, was to mark the occasion. So I decided to do it, literally.

I have always been at constant cross roads in my life. Things never worked out the way I wanted or planned. I am not where I thought I would be career wise and I am not where I thought I would be financially. I don’t have the fancy car, nor do I have the nice house. Heck, sometimes I don’t even have enough money to buy myself a treat, like a bottle of wine, and Lord knows I need it. Point is, where I am is no where near where or who I thought I would be at 35. But, is who or where I am that bad?

So, due to certain reasons, I could not follow the yellow brick road. But look at what I experienced on the path less traveled. I have a wonderful family who fill my heart and bring me endless joy. I have a job. I have job that I enjoy. I have job that does not stress me out too much. I have a job that affords me certain privileges. Most of all, I have a job that brings me {not too much (”,) } money. I am lucky enough to have been selected to study the degree I am. And I have met such wonderful people in so doing. I have traveled, boy have I traveled. Because of my job, I get to spend so much quality time with my kids and family. So I have traded the things money can buy for the things that they can’t.

But as much as I know this and wouldn’t have it any other way, there are days where I wish I was more successful. It’s because I compare my life to others that I feel less accomplished and less worthy. That because I’m not rich or don’t drive a fancy car that I have somehow failed. I needed a reminder that even though I do not have the car or the fancy house, or because I do not covet name brands or fancy things, the most import thing for me is that I have experienced life; that I have lived. I needed to remind myself if I ever doubt who I am or where I am in life, that I have won because I have lived… and so, I got inked to remind myself just that. At 35, I have already lived a 1000 lives. And so the message to remind me …                      “Always remember, more importantly, you’ve lived.”

 

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