At one point 2018 felt like it was never going to end. It was like the comrades marathon, where the finish line seemed to keep moving farther away. But it is finally in sight. I say comrades marathon because I’m not the only one who felt this way. I actually stole this post’s title from a friend’s Facebook update.
I’m not the only one who feels that 2018 has felt like an eternity and I’m not the only one who feels that it was cathartic. So much has happened this year. Astronomically, we have had a Super blue moon eclipse, planetary alignment, total lunar eclipses, solar eclipses, bright viewings of Mars and Venus; this year was filled with astronomical wonders (visit https://news.nationalgeographic.com/2017/12/top-skywatching-events-2018-eclipses-meteors-planets-astronomy for more information). All of which have some spiritual significance of sorts.
Spiritually, for those who follow spiritual learnings, 2018 represented a lot of growth and transformation for humanity on the whole. Planetary movements and shifts in the cosmos results in significant energy shifts. That of which we experience here on earth. (Visit sites like https://foreverconscious.com/astrology-forecast-2018, for more reading on this). Whether you believe in this, its is undeniable that there was a diferent energy about 2018. It was an enigma.
Personally, 2018 has brought about so much growth. Educational growth, spiritual growth and self growth. There have been so many lessons and challenges in 2018 and I could of either allowed it to break me or grow me. I was amazed by my resilience, adaptability and tenacity. With all going on, I do not know how I managed to stay (arguably) sane.
2017 was a tough year for me, trying to run the side hustle, focusing on work and running a household, it was tough but I did it. And despite turbulence at work, because it was a flexible role, I decided to stay on and register to study further. I thought that if I could manage 2017, 2018 would be easier. I had it all figured out. I made it through 2017, my most difficult year, how much more difficult could 2018 be? The answer, waaayyy more!
2018 started off at an average pace. I had registered for my studies and was really enjoying it. Then came July and the frequency switched up by a 100%. Work became incredibly tough; relationships were changing and there was pressure from management. During this time it was as if my studies and work were competing to see who could drain me first. And if that was not enough, we were homeless. In July we were preparing to move house but the transfer took longer than expected, an entire 6 months longer. 2018 drained me physically, mentally and emotionally. But out of that, I grew, I learnt, I gained.
2018 for me, is represented by the butterfly. 2017 bore the caterpillar. The beginning of 2018, the caterpillar built its cocoon, and until June it formed its shelter. From July 2018 the metamorphosis happened. While the chrysalis phase can be thought of as the work loaded phase, it is actually within the cocoon where all the work happens. It takes a lot of physical work for the caterpillar to grow into the butterfly. And this is what happened with me. As I tried to hold it all together, I was transforming, growing inside this cocoon. 2018 was transformational. And while I felt like this goal oriented, determined, motivated individual at the beginning, by the end, I had been derailed, challenged and beaten so much that I actually transformed, I grew wings.
I know that I am not the only one who has felt this. 2018 has taught me so much about myself; for the first time, I know who I am and where I want to go. 2018 was a journey of self-discovery. If you have learnt about yourself this year, if you have been on a transformational journey but are still uncertain, trust your instincts. You have your answers.